A Chapter of Accidents

I swear to God the sun is laughing at me
But I can't say because I don't look straight at it
Hear me out
Those boys tell all the lies that roll right past you:
"I don't wanna f**k you, I just wanna hold you."
Hear me out
I've searched my conscience
Done laps thinking, like the ice capades and roller rinks
Will I know if I still care?
I can't make up my mind
I'll burn those bridges to the ground to tie you up and drag you down
Give in to all subtle charms, spend summer nights in your arms
If I drowned in deeper oceans and sink, would you be better off than me?
I'd do anything to find you
It's springtime and I feel like I'm dying while everybody's got a new lease on life
Hear me out
It's the time of year that rolls right past me
Just days to deadline
I know you can't wait to leave
What do I waste my time for?
You've been gone for some time
Could I set out to find you?
I'm f**ked because you're my vice
But maybe I'm that type of guy, because I might be
I know this year's been miserable
I have faith the end is beautiful
It's just the road to get to you that's hard