Only me

[Verse]
Back with the feelings, I pour out my heart
The hiatus is over,I'm better than ever
Decide to take a long break from my mind
Cuz I died inside tryna keep my life together
It's Dempsey forever, I know y'all remember
I never surrendered, I'm level and centered
A lot of my people was really pretenders
I'm done giving chances to second offenders
Doing it my way, I ain't going hollywood
Save all that bullshit for everyone else
When I started this shit, I was only a kid
With a dream, I was lonely and all by myself
I don't care about money, don't care about fame
At the end of the day, it's gon' speak for itself
All my spiritual healing, I'm stopping the bleeding
I've spent enough time at the bottom of hell
I'm a saint and a sinner, I'm both but I'm neither
I'm made up of stardust and paint of the past
Every mistake that I made was apart of a process
I call it becoming a man
Over the years, I done hated myself
But I think I'm beginning to love who I am
Even when I'm all alone in my head
I don't cry anymore but I'll always be sad
I make art, I don't make sense
Yeah, I break hearts, I don't make friends
In the middle of a little bit of change again
It'll be that way 'til the game ends
I'm adapting and working without losing focus
Not stuck in old ways, not remotely the same
They greet the old me that they knew but that's normal
Cuz everyone understands that growing is pain
2018, I done grinded my ass off
I made a career off this rap shit
I spent every second I had in the lab
Breathing life into things I imagine
I dropped everything going on at the time
And I started pursuing my passion
Cuz everything other than rap
Doesn't matter to me, It's all a distraction
One decision any minute, prolly could've been a ghost already
Lately I've been living every single word I wrote already
Suicidal thoughts, I used to think I wanna go already
I know I ain't saying anything that y'all don't know already
Switching my mentality, It happened automatically
When I was on the brink of insanity
I was struggling, panicking, any hopes I'd had vanishes
Traumatized and then damaged and I was sinking in agony, but
I was set free
And it wasn't easy breaking out them chains
I wasted time, I ran in place
Blue rain flowing throughout my veins
Emotions that I can't contain
Cuz nightmares that I can't explain
And I can't even lie, that shit fucked up my brain
'Til this day I wish I wasn't stuck in this maze
But I'll always be only me