Niko

[VERSE]
I walked in blind
Walked in naïve
Couldn't see
Wouldn't let me leave
Traded so much just to gain your trust
What I didn't know?
Your trust was luck
Had no reason to activate that injured side
You had to wait
Overwatered and over-sheltered
My tree of life was your trauma filter
Like cat and mouse, you sat and preyed
Staring, watching every move I made
Analyzing and deciphering
You were finding flaws
You were forensic filing

[PRE-Chorus]
Now I'm breaking, tearing at the seams
At the trauma you transferrеd to me
God forbid you ever do mе wrong
To abusers, they're the victims all along

[Chorus]
I've only realized this recently
There's not a good reason to be ashamed of me
My deprecation and humiliation were just seeds that narcissists have planted in me
Anything that I have done wrong I've tried to fix
Said "sorry, sorry, sorry" 'til my voice lost pitch
I wasted breath and air and sweat and blood and strife and all my mental health to fix your shitty life

[VERSE]
You got sick of waiting
Sick of stalking, preying
So you set me up and tried to trap me and it phased me
It worked so well, you left me in the dust
Thus began the cycle through the mud
When your set-up worked and it was done
I was left trying to work and word what had begun
For you had set me up to fail
Acted like I hurt you, fucked up
When it was impossible to tell what it was I did
'Cuz apparently "no" is not valid
And setting boundaries must've really hurt your feelings
Last I checked, I was simply fucking speaking
I'm so sorry I can't read your mind
It's almost like there's no faults to find

[PRE-Chorus]
You were breaking, tearing at the seams
From the trauma that has no business with me
God forbid you're ever in the wrong
To abusers, they're the victims all along

[Chorus]
You need to realize this quickly for there's not a good reason to be ashamed of me
Your deprecation and humiliation are just seeds that grew into the problems planted in me
Anything that I've done wrong I've tried to fix
Said "sorry, sorry, sorry" 'till my voice lost pitch
And unlike you, who could barely say a word
I tried every day to patch and heal your hurt

[BRIDGE]
Lies
All your words are lies
Goodbye
In lies there's always the truth

[POST-Chorus]
Once I saw the game you played
The reason for my injured brain
I ran away to the light of day to keep me safe from your acid rain

[OUTRO]
But that was just the start
There were many more attempts
To slander, rumor, batter, break me, hurt me, hate me
Turn my friends against me, crush me, fucking end me
You kept going even when I ran
I set up walls and locks and gates and wire and weapons
Even after our ordeal is said and done
You kept attempting, kept conspiring, plotting, hating

I told you once and twice and thrice and so much more
That I was gone and walked away right through that door
But in your tiny sick and twisted fucking mind
You needed more than just an end, you needed signs
You needed to know that you have fucking broke me
You needed the satisfaction of succeeding
So I ran away and left you in the dark
Let you be
Let you eat away at someone else's heart