You. #hexd

[Verse 1]
Dear Lord, why have you forsaken me?
The pain is fucking breaking me
My heart is split in two now that you're not dating me
I've spent 3 years with the best moments of my life
Got over my sadness but my head still fucking pounds at night
Asking if you gon' stay with me
I blew it off as anxiety
Now I don't know what to think
My head was right about you and me
I don't think I've ever felt this low
I've hit rock bottom of the fucking line
I don't even know where to go.. nah
I'm a miserable nobody
"Oh YOU'RE Soup?"
Guess what buddy
That very name came from the same girl who always stayed in my brain
But she fucking tore my heart out
I'm hurting from the pain
I'm hurting so fucking much
My clothes are tear stained

[Verse 2]
God damn it all
This has taken a toll on my mental state
Think about never seeing your family again
I begin to fucking hyperventilate
Now you say I can't even see that movie with you that we planned for a month straight
Now you say I can't go to Prom with you that we planned since Sophomore year for fuck's sake
My eyes hurt from all these fucking tears
All these fucking years I spent with you now became my worst fears
When I look back at my high school career
All these memories
I was scared to be your ex
So I blew a dozen checks
Names written all to you
My heart was claimed
Loyal I remained
Cuz it was given all to you..
When I go to sleep at night all I could think about is you
Now we'll never share a bed in the same apartment
All I thought about is you
I can never picture myself with another girl
Cuz I thought I was made for you
But apparently not
You took that gun and shot
Me straight through the heart
Yeah, that was all you
Now my feelings rot