August

[Verse 1]
My sister won't see this autumn approaching
'Cause she died in spring
And i can't recall where she drove me that morning
Can't remember a thing
As i walk through this park
And spy at the people enjoying
Late August's late afternoon breeze
I note to myself that when this city's in motion
It seems rather normal- then suddenly i freeze
For i realize that memories with missing details
Are like memories that are destined to be doomed
Because it's not like i can call her "yo sis what up?
Can you call please once you get out from under your tomb?"
And i can't afford to forget so i recite over and over
Where we met what she wore what she did with her hair
I know i got in that car, i know she was coughing
I know she was driving but i don't know where

[Chorus]
It's so weird what happened
So fucked up and sad
And so unfair
And senseless and cruel
And trying to recover
Trying to get back to normal
Is like trying to get comfortable on a wobbly stool

[Verse 2]
I like the park at these hours
All the people i follow
Are helplessly unaware
As the time ticks away the light dims and decays
And instead of just spying I stare
I stare at a middle aged
Couple hugging they're hungry for loving
Their lust means they must be betraying their spouses
Stare at teens on a bench exchanging first glances
Then handshakes then money then finally ounces
I stare at a good looking woman
She’s young and proportioned
But she notices and stares back with rage
"You dumb fuck!" I tell myself
"Your sister might know her
They look pretty much the same age"

[Chorus]
It's so weird what happened
So fucked up and sad
And so unfair
And senseless and cruel
And trying to recover
Trying to get back to normal
Is like trying to get comfortable on a wobbly stool

[Verse 3]
I'm working I'm eating
I get drunk I live
But in a way it's like pretending that there's light in pitch dark
And that notion follows me always including right now
On this bench as the sun sets in the park
Early evenings attract lots of mosquitoes n’ fleas
I leave myself at their mercy "bite away as you please"
Then i get up and slowly walk away
I guess you can call this an ok day

[Chorus]
It's so weird what happened
So fucked up and sad
And so unfair
And senseless and cruel
And trying to recover
Trying to get back to normal
Is like trying to get comfortable on a wobbly stool

[Outro]
It's so weird what happened
So fucked up and sad
And so unfair
And senseless and cruel
And trying to recover
Trying to get back to normal
Is like pretending you're a genius when you know you're a fool