Chore

[Verse 1]
At what point did I fuck this up
I lost myself but I gained a crutch
It’s so much harder than I thought it was
Been spending my nights getting too fucked up
I think I’m a mess
I think too much
More dependent than I ever was

[Pre-Chorus]
There’s a train track nestled between my house and work
And I don’t stop at the stop sign
I put my life in the hands of the universe
If there’s a train let it take me
If there’s a train then I guess that it’s my time
And I gasp and I cringe and I hope and I dread
And then it’s over, I’m on the other side

[Chorus]
Life’s a short trip
You’re the pilot
I’m not sure that I’m ready to land this thing yet
I've always wanted to drown
My odds are better in the water
So if we go down I’m aiming for the ground

[Verse 2]
I wanna set myself on fire
Could you please watch?
See me burn as bright as I have always seen myself
So you’ll know I’m not a liar
So I can feel all the pain I've always thought I felt
I keep ending up here on the floor
At least in different rooms
So at least I don’t get bored
Oh, existing’s such a chore
It's so strange how some days I end up stuck in bed
And other days I don't get stuck until I reach the door

[Chorus]
Life’s a short trip
You’re the pilot
I’m not sure that I’m ready to land this thing yet
I've always wanted to drown
My odds are better in the water
So if we go down I’m aiming for the ground
Life’s a short trip
You’re the pilot
There's an answer and I'm sure we'll find it
Life’s a short trip
You’re the pilot
There's an answer and I'm sure we'll find it

[Bridge]
Try to be enough for myself
You're so strong you don't need help
It's so hard to rely on anyone else
You're so strong you don't need help
I tried to leave the house
I stopped at four different gas stations
Went back to the first and found the nerve to get out
But when I finally made it in, couldn't decide what to get
I went and hid in the bathroom
It's my favorite anxious habit
Then I went back home
I gave up and got stoned
I can hardly face the world
I sure as hell can't face it alone
I'm holding out for something more
Let's see what life has in store for me
I'll try to keep breathing, but existing's such a chore
So I am holding out for more
Let’s see what life has in store for me
I’ll try to keep breathing, but existing's such a chore