Terrified

Help me escape from myself just for a while. I need a break from these evil thoughts, just for the night. These evil thoughts that make it hard for me to breathe. Voice in my head, oh please God let me sleep. I'm scared of myself and I don't know what to do. I can't run away and I really fucking need you. I'm scared of myself. I'm afraid of what I think, of what I will do, what I will say, how much I drink. Of how I hate everything that makes me up. I'm terrified because I don't think that you give a fuck. I'm scared of myself and I don't know what to do. I can't run away and I really fucking need you. I'm afraid of the fact that I'm screaming into the void. You don't care. Now I'm gonna lose my voice