You Said Not To Worry, But I Did It Anyways

I gave her the world and she took that shit away from me
Thought you was my everything, that you would hit the grave with me
Now the sun's setting, clock's ticking, ain't no saving me
Ain't no need to wait for me, it's blissful when I lay in peace
You ripped my chest open, now the blood is running black
I've been falling off the tracks, focused on the shit I lack
Smoke another sack, only thing that brings me back
This world is full of motherfuckin' doom, and that's that
I can no longer be the nice guy
Make a couple wishes when you look into the night sky
Paint a couple pictures, show the world through your own eyes
Really doesn't matter in the end, cause we gon' die

I guess it could've been worse, I stayed out of dirt
Stayed out of jail by ducking the perps
I'm walking through hell, 'til I know my worth
It could be a gift or a curse, I hold myself back from securing the purse
Every time I take a L, I'ma learn, I don't make confessions, I just let it burn
I'll put on a show until I close the curtain
I feel like everything is worth it, even if I don't deserve it
I do this shit for everybody that's been feeling worthless
You're not the only one that thinks that they don't have a purpose
I've been feeling hopeless since a youngin'
Yeah, I always think of something, but I end up saying nothing
Using my mental illness as a crutch, I keep myself from jumping
Tryin' to keep myself afloat, but slowly in the pit I've sunken