Existaphobia

Scared of the fight, tell me why I gotta pick a side
Scared of the night, but it's the only time I seem to thrive
Even scared to die, when it happens, I'ma close my eyes
Scared of where I'm goin', so I tell myself, enjoy the ride
But I'm scared, scared to go to sleep
Then I'm scared to wake up, I'm too embedded in my dreams
Yeah, I'm scared of fake love, all my trust is getting breached
And I'm scarеd to open up, so I've been patchin' all the lеaks
Yeah, I'm scared
Scared I'm bound for failure and it's plain to see
Scared cause some of my homies didn't make the same age as me
Scared to lose my parents or anyone in my family
I'm scared cause I know it's a moment that I'ma have to see

Scared I'm gettin' too old for this shit and I ain't even 30
Scared that I'll lean back on my addictions when my feelings hurtin'
Lookin' through the rose colored lenses got my vision blurry
Sometimes I wish I didn't have to fuckin' worry
Scared of drownin' in my thoughts, so I drown 'em out
Scared I do this shit for nothing, never draw a crowd
But I don't do it for the fame, money or the clout
Zoomin' out, then I wonder what the fuck I'm worried 'bout
I know who I am, I can see the real
I can tell who loves me and who's lookin' for a spot to steal
I ain't being greedy, I'm just lookin' for an honest meal
I ain't scared of money, but I'm scared of how it makes me feel