You’re Dead To Me Since July 27th, 2017 / Trifling

[Part 1]
Forever the elephant in the room
I don’t know what to do
Are my thoughts really crazy or are they the truth?
The misfit
The maverick
The outcast of my family
I realized that night they’ll never understand me
They always tell you to follow your dreams
Now my family is scared of what I wanna be
M.A.V
Those letters mean the world to me

Parents getting older
And all this weight on my shoulders is about to fall over

I said I wanna be rapper
They may say they support it
But deep down I know they ain’t for it

They said push rapping to the side
I won’t do what they want to
I’m standing up for myself
And I know that it hurts you
I’m no longer the kid you knew
Just know that I love you
But if you’re in my way
And won’t let me go, then fuck you

[Part 2]
All of this pain inside is getting hard to hide
I might as well crumble in my own demise
Cause this life
This life
This life is full of lies
“What if” are 2 words I live by
Cause nothing is certain
We know nothing in this life

Everyday is so dry with her
Like when a daffodil dies
I wish I could go and kiss her
But my anxiety won’t allow me to fly high
So instead I cry and stare at the night sky
Self wallow in depression I’m running out of time
Buried in my tears
I’m staring in the mirror
Darkness
I lied if I said I was fine…