Vent, Pt. 1

[Verse 1]
Sorry mom for not being what you wanted
And sorry dad for being a disappointment
I’m just chasing my dreams with no idea where I’m going
And at the time of this recording
It’s 6 A.M. in the morning
It’s storming
I gotta say that my dreams are more important
Than what you seem to think is right for me
And everybody’s out having fun
Partying
Getting drunk
And thats cool, to each his own
I’m just here waiting for my shot to come
I don’t run out of oxygen
When I send shots, they run
Or I can turn this to a fight in the octagon
Every time I drop a song
They all love it
But not enough for me to earn a budget
Cause the real raps don’t blow up, they love dumb shit
I burn a bridge I’ll built another one above it
Yeah I burn a bridge I’ll built another one above it
I burn a fucking bridge I’ll built another one above it

Aye
Patiently waiting for everything to change
I know I’m not alone, you might just feel the same
Thoughts of suicide, but I fear the pain
Ugh
I feel deranged
Ugh
I feel insane
I know I should be making some fucking minimum wage
Everyday is the same script, we’re just flipping the page
Warning: these messages coming for you subliminally
I went from dribbling a ball to ripping the stage
You think you’re right all the time
You never listen to me
Sorry dad I’m not a lawyer
Sorry sis I’m not employed
Yeah
Sorry I’m so spoiled
Ever since a little boy
I’ve been fighting depression, anxiety, and paranoia
I know you don’t believe in me, you’re a liar
That's why I'm finna move to California
If I ever run away, just know I still love you
Ugh…

[Verse 2]
Yeah
9 times out of 10, I feel alone
Like I’m the only fucking person in this world
And I want these girls that I can never get
Every time I try, I ain’t got no luck with em
I got all these problems, and never solving em
She said I’m not her type and she kind of right
She a perfect girl, I am not a perfect guy
I got acne on my face
I got bags under my eyes
And I’m not 6 foot
I am more like 5’6
I am a introvert
I am a pisces
I am so insecure
I do not like me
I just wanna find love
I just wanna sight see
Stuck here in Hawaii
Fucking up psyche
I know what want but the problem is anxiety
My family gonna lie to me
Tell me they support it but they’re lying through their fucking teeth
Imma keep on going
I don’t need em imma die in peace…

And I’m just in the friend zone, writing sad songs
Open up my notes app, that’s where I vent on
My heart has been broke, but shoutout my kinfolk
Not talking my fam though, I’m talking my friends bro
I know what I gotta do but never put it in affect
I’m a nervous wreck, lost up in this world, I’m so stressed
And I drop these songs, I put my heart and soul in it
I grip the mic like I’m holding on for dear life
My family don’t believe in me, they have yet to realize
Do not lie me
Do not lie me
Do not lie, they still using Facebook like it's 2008

(Translated from Chinese)
Mom, I really love you
But I don’t wanna go to University Of Hawaii
I want to rap
Soon, I’ll be moving to LA
Imma be a famous
When I go, don’t cry
When I go, don’t be scared
Imma be okay

[Outro]
M.A.V
What do those letters mean?
Melissa And Vincent
It’s my parents names
Thats what I rep
I'll always remember them and all they’ve ever given me
But sadly, they don’t like rapping, my passion
They think I’m wasting my time, it’s a bad thing
But I’ll never quit, nothing will stop me
I just wanna prove em wrong
Show em that their son is good living on his own
It’s either I do what they want or I do want I love
Go to school and be miserable or keep making these songs
I know that one day, they’re gonna leave my life
And I’ll be broken inside, tears down my eyes, wanting to cry…

I know that day is soon to come
That's why I’m running outta time
I need to prove em wrong
I’m gone