You Must Love Me

Since my date of birth
I brought you nothing but hurt
I would come home right before 
you left
For morning prayers at church
Still had liquor on my breath
And the smell of weed on my shirts
Always checked my room
If I was there you’d read me a verse

I’d always act like I was sleeping
But I was blazed and annoyed
But now I miss those precious moments
I'mma do the same for my boy

Repressed the hurtful things said
I try to forget it
Dad, I regret it
When you tried to get better
I robbed you of credit

Fuck

You threw the liquor away
Gradually started to pray
But I was young and bitter
Instead of helping I was calling you fake

How much that must’ve hurt you
When you were trying to live with virtue
All I did was curse your efforts
And just questioned your faith

I acted like I was mad
Cuz I was ashamed of my life
Cuz I knew you were disappointed
But you were too tired to fight
And you’d just smile saying
Mom and I pray together for you
You said sorry
I apologize
Should’ve been better to you

I think about the sacrifices you made for my joy
From the countless hours of work
Sleeping in the back to store
You caught cancer in the stomach
As you laid back in your bed
Morphine running through blood
You motioned me to come and you said

Rick, my life wasn’t perfect
But having you made it worth it
All I do is thank god for my kids
When I pray and I worship
And I started to tear
I got nothing to show what I’ve done
You squeezed my hands, smiling, saying
My son

Damn you must love me
Damn you must love me
Damn you must love me