You Deserve Better, Samantha

A half empty Atlanta airport bar
Isn’t a place that I expected to be reminded
That life just isn’t fair
And that my problems don’t matter
Nearly as much as I always think they do
And that there’s always something to look forward to
Even if it’s buried under all this broken glass
Oh God, I feel so selfish
Everything makes me feel selfish

I keep shutting off my brain and keep shutting out my heart
I keep spending every summer praying for it to end when you’re still waiting for yours to start
Without knowing you made me realize
That I’ve wasted so much of my time
On things that I can’t control and on things that will never be mine
Now I’m trying to learn how to let go

But now I keep waking up from those God-awful dreams
Where everything’s coming apart at the seams
And I’m trying to scream but I can’t pull the stitches out
It’s serving as a reminder that I just can’t do without

I’d learn to count again
I’d learn to count again
I’d learn to count again
So you don’t have to

I’d learn to count again
I’d learn to count again
I’d learn to count again
So you don’t have to

I’d learn to count again
I’d learn to count again
I’d learn to count again
So you don’t have to

I’d learn to count again
I’d learn to count again
I’d learn to count again
So you don’t have to

I’ll try to start again
I’ll try to start again
Try to find my heart and dig it out of the ground

I’ll try to start again
I’ll try to start again
I swear I’ll try to start again
I’ll learn how to live again with you in mind