You Completely Destroy Me Pt 2

I always told you that I'd be there when you're exhausted
The line between us is running paper-thin
And then you ghosted, and now I lost it
I always check my phone, it's like constant
I guess I harbored feelings, and I kept 'em close
But when I'm way too tired I tossed it
I wonder where'd you go, I wonder where you've been
I guess I'll never know, but when I close my eyes
I feel you on my skin
I wanna die, but I know that's a sin, that's a sin
And if I could ever tell you onе thing
It'd be that I could've nevеr foreseen the grief that would've Become from being torn apart at the scenes while I bleed
And you sing about the ones that have forever replaced me
But it burns in the third degree, I swear it stings like the worst bee
I'm hoping to be free, but my heart can never really agree
And I wonder if you're finding your way home
I wonder if you're just taking time to roam
I wonder if you had to take out a loan
For that new place that you actually call a home
And on the road, if you listen to music that makes you feel whole
And I hope that anywhere you go will make you feel important
Because you're so dedicated, and it shows
I guess the only reason I'm taking time to write a spoken word
Is that you told me that they were my favorite songs that you ever heard
And I'm so sorry that I'd take your time, and I sound absurd
I gotta keep it short, I gotta keep it sweet, but I never learn
I just got too many things I wanna say while you're on your way
I gotta pile 'em up, I gotta get 'em out
Because I'm never gonna be okay someday
I guess that's my fate, I guess that's the way that I can always find my way through the day
Try to find my way through the day, without you

Because you
Completely
Destroy me

With summer approaching, I always get nervous
I know July is encroaching
It's the only thing I hear in my head, but it's poaching
All of my happy thoughts, so I'm only hoping that you're not thinking of eloping with another
I'm only coping with my blunders, I'm only throwing my soul under
I made a paper heart, but it's wearing thin
Yet all these questions now, where the hell you been?
And when I fell asleep, I feel you on my skin
And when I think of you, I just start to spin
And I don't wanna feel, and I don't wanna wake
I just wanna sleep, you have my soul to take
I've been so lost of late since you've gone away
I wanna fade away, and you should have your say
But I don't really care at the end of the day
Because you toyed with my heart like a game you played
And if I could just move on, then I'd be okay
I know you feel my heart, and got it on display
I wanna feel you here, but I know you're gone
I wanna hear your voice because it's been so long
I like to think you care, but I know I'm wrong
I like to think you care, but I know I'm wrong

But I know
You're gone

[?] won't be the same
Lost in the [?], forgetting my name
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Breaking my heart and I'm lost and ashamed
[?] secret
[?] paying the price
[?]
Too much now
I think i feel safe now [?]
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And I'm so sorry that I've got nothing left to say
I remember that day, when you went away
I knew that nothing would ever be the same
And I've got pain, and I've got rain
I hear it pour down through the drain
I've got spring showers like it's May
I've got yellow flowers, but they're gray
I've got yellow flowers, but they're gray
I'll keep you in my thoughts, I'll keep you 'cause I care
I'll keep you in my heart, just like you were still there
I only exist, when you feel me in your hair
I'm just a cold slow breeze, and whisper of despair
And I know everything's okay, I know everything's alright
You've got a new life now, and you'll sleep peaceful tonight
I hope you're doing good, and I hope you're doing great
I'll wait right here for you, until I fade away