“X-Static Process” is an introspective song with folk guitar backing that details Madonna on the verge of existential crisis. The title is a homophone for “ecstatic process.”
[Verse 1]
I'm not myself when you're around
I'm not myself standing in a crowd
I'm not myself and I don't know how
I'm not myself, myself right now
[Chorus]
Jesus Christ, will you look at me?
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know if I should give a damn
When you're around, I don't know who I am
[Verse 2]
I'm not myself when you go quiet
I'm not myself all alone at night
I'm not myself, don't know who to call (All alone, I cry)
I'm not myself at all
[Chorus]
Jesus Christ, will you look at me?
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know if I should give a damn
When you're around, I don't know who I am
[Bridge]
I always wished that I could find
Someone as beautiful as you
But in the process, I forgot
That I was special too
[Verse 3]
I'm not myself when you go quiet
(I'm not myself when you're around)
I'm not myself standing in a crowd
(I'm not myself all alone at night)
I'm not myself and I don't know how
(Don't know what I believe)
I'm not myself, myself right now
[Chorus]
Jesus Christ, will you look at me?
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Someone say if I should give a damn
(Don't really know if I should give a damn)
When you're around, I don't know who I am
[Outro]
I always wished that I could find
Someone as beautiful as you
But in the process, I forgot
That I was special too
I always wished that I could find
Someone as talented as you
But in the process, I forgot
That I was just as good as you
X-Static Process was written by Stuart Price & Madonna.
X-Static Process was produced by Mirwais Ahmadzaï & Madonna.
Madonna released X-Static Process on Mon Apr 21 2003.
My favorite song on the album is X-Static Process because I’m on my own, with my guitar and because I sing all the harmonies and choruses, I do not know, this song has something that reminds me of my childhood … it’s really a very simple song.
– Via Los40
We wrote X-Static Process together on my last album and that was kind of testing out the water. We tried other things but that was the only thing I thought had substance.
–Madonna via Attitude.co.uk (2005)
It started off being a love song but then the subject of Jesus crept in and I realized that my problem with men is the same as my problem with Jesus. And that is, if you give Jesus/Men more power than they deserve, you will get fucked… I love men, When you give them too much power, when you make the...