Worthless Battles

Reflecting on the mores that affect how I behave
All of the routines and the patterns of the day
Awakening to beams full of verve but my attitude is somber
My spirits need to launder but the only thing I ponder
Is a selfish destination, a personal objective
Basking in this greed with success solely subjective
So I'm left with two choices; continue the directive
Of my ego, or trash it and take on a new perspective
The first is so infective and addictive
A phony need to grow physically is what's depicted
The latter is a risk with integrity exposed
Leave behind behaviors driving comfort to oppose
Every feeling predisposed, my ignorance incited
Intuitive beliefs that only boast how I'm benighted
These habits that are centered on myself will soon amend
The urgency is dire in this breaking of the trend

Worthless battles, trivial aims
Lunatic acts for a cynical fame
It lacks real value, negative gain
Some feel pride while the rest see pain

The ravenous desire to acquire recognition
Is tinder to the fire needing prior repetition
Of the craft, the high of exhibition
Has given me a rhythm not required that I live in
The digging of suspicion I've developed has me frayed
Longing to continue all the practice until I'm praised
But I'm swayed by the conscious that is guilty in my brain
Because terror to citizens have my wishes in the shade
I'm ditching what I've made, a mind of self-concern
A mercenary frame that wouldn't give without return
Until it's burned in moronic thought and not patient
While marathon bombs leave a dumbbell weightless
It's cases where an extreme death scheme hits
Where talk of any best team / next dream shifts
To the worldwide effect, a distressed mien sits
And puts into perspective the stress we get from the