WOO

Why am I like this? I scream at the fuckin ceiling
Sick of having to light this tree just to maufacturing a feeling of human
Why do I do this? What do I got to prove?
They said I wouldn't amount to shit, so what the fuck I got to lose
I could just hang it up now, nobody’d think of me less
If I went with Jeff to some staffer to false pass a piss test
But I ain't built for that, thirty concussions with black lungs in my chest
I was burning blunts in the woods while they took the President Test
But I digress while I'm ashing my life away
All my homies catching cases and babies, so much has changed
And I just stayed the same, rooted to all of my old mistakes
While my attempts to understand myself and God are drawin hate
So I feel isolated, can’t even say I'm gay, I'm ashamed
At how they weaponized it, identify as tables and planes
Screaming "Bigot!" cause my stomach's wrenching at them gender switching children
Rather take to Twitter, say that I ain't the color of who they killin
"Why you mad about it?", Y'all ain't been in the Druff
When the dew's setting, few lights on the sidewalk a bag of drugs on my bag
As I peddled death like I was Phillip Morris
Y’all just wanna joke, y’all don't give the whole fuckin story
Y’all got three kids, five jobs, how is that a fuckin life?
Forty in the Druff, y'all was never them dudes, sell your mics
They stagnatin, hatin on my lack of patience
Cause you lazy and I really lived the crazy shit you claimin
But it's why I can't sleep without drinking, afraid to speak what I’m thinking
She laugh and say she know evil, but she ain't dealt with these demons
Ain't sat and brooded for weeks without seeing sun or a person
Don't know how deep it gets, ain't never seen the shit behind the curtains
Why I'm self destructing, wrist shoved through the button
The countdown's finished, guess I'm just a cold husk shufflin
Can't trust shit, what is love? What is hate? What is fear?
Can't discern the earnest from who's saying what I wanna hear
Why am I here? I feel it's more than PUBG
Smoke ear to ear, barely flinching when my lungs bleed
Normal shit, seen so many perish in the course of this
I pour it out in reverence of the homies for it touch lips
So sick, tear you down within minutes
Won't even let nobody die for they mock you for they rememberance
Mothafuckas went and gunned down X bout an hour ago
It's got me contemplating life again, how fast that it go
When no one got respect for nothing, all desensitized
Fuckin selective bout who they say deserve to live and die
They don't get it, they ain't never felt this kind of split
When you consumed by all the guilt for every shitty thing you did, so you don't never rest
Or think steady, my head is an
Uncontrollable place when the inward pain begin to set in
Near the morning hours when I'm alone with my worst nemesis
Wish I could switch bodies with God just to know what heaven is
So I could feel deserving of all that I'm starting to earn
Ric Flair Complex, I'll be pouring sweat in my urn
Knuckles covered in dirt, I been bringing in the harvest
So my people won't be starving when I'm dead and departed
So when I'm on this I'm hard as the metal flesh of Colossus
Ain't been the type to commute to some nine to five at my office
As I get old I'm fighting to live the way I feel I should
Thinking I threw it all away trying to fix what I never could