Wonderland

(TEDDYBEAR)
What if it's all in my head
And the wind picks up when I'm close to the edge
Scared if I try making amends
I'd been trying to swim again and I'm still made of lead

What if it was all in my hands
And I just missed a turn and I'm still driving west
If I'm reading what you said and it's all making sense
I just turned my back
And now I won't turn back

How's it all supposed to feel new again
When everything we could do, I've been doing again
I'm tryna think how long it's been 'cause I've been fucked up since
But now you'll have revenge
If I over-extend
While you feel at your best
After all the things you did
To forget the things I said
I was thinking it would have to be you
To call me up one day with the truth
And you'd be thinking that you wouldn't get through
'Cause I've accepted I might never get proof

Cause usually it's all in my head
And the wind picks up when I'm close to the edge
Scared if I tried making amends
I'd been trying to swim again and I'm still made of lead

What if it was all in my hands
And I just missed a turn and I'm still driving west
If I'm reading what you said and it's all making sense
And I just turned my back
And now I won't turn back

(BLANKTS)
How am I supposed to get even again
Like I just want to run
But now I'm so used to tenth
Why, I try but you I can't not defend
And now you'll have to 'stand
Why I changed my plans
And that just turned my back
And I wanted to plan
And you chose wonderland