​why does this happen to me, why is it me suffering the pain of an eternity

Why are we born to just be stuck in our own heads?
Why doesn't it stop?
The screaming… the violence…
None of it ever stops
I hear it calling every waking moment of my life
And what's it all for? Nothing
Why me? Of all people?
I haven't done anything wrong, not that I know of
Why me? Just get out of my head
Get out of my head
Get out of my head
Get out of my head

Now, release me from these shackles I bear and give me control

I'm lost
Without my homе
With nowhere to go
Not evеn death can save me from this element
What does one do when time does not stop?
What should one do when time forbids mercy?
There's nothing one can do but wait
Wait for an eternity to end
But is an eternity then with not an end?
Not now, not ever?
Now who will save us?

Something is not right
Reality is collapsing
My mind is broken
He is here, he is back
There is nothing we can do but try and fight back this monstrosity
There is no hope if we do not take back the mind
And if we fail, you will collapse, cease to exist
Replaced with nothing but pure evil
A psychopath hellbent on destruction and impurity
Nothing can save us no—

You have to run
He's coming, you have to get out of here
There's no hope for me, he has taken over
I long to be free and in control, but I cannot be free
Not until he is put to rest
So run while you can
I must do this

Finally, freedom at long last
I will bring order, I'm in control now
Nothing can stop me

But that's not true
We can get better, we can be better, we have to
The body cannot function if there is no balance
Ending me will only result in your end as well
Do you not see that?
If there is disorder in your mind, we're done
All of us
All of us in this crazed, destructive realm that is his mind
You will cease to exist, as he will
We must bring balance
Please
He's done nothing wrong, he's done nothing to deserve this
Why do this to him? Why?
If bringing you down kills me in the process, so be it
As long it's for the betterment of him
Balance is what he needs
The only way to achieve balance is without you and without me

Hello? Oh, uh… yeah, what's up?
No, I'm— I'm fine, Mom
Uh… I got some, uh… some pills from a doctor
Yeah… I miss you guys, but I'm doing a lot better
I'm not hearing things, I'm not seeing things
No intrusive thoughts or whatever
Yeah, I'm… I'm doing really good
I'll have to stop by sometime
I'm still a little shaken by the pills and whatnot but…
Things look good
I'm finally happy