Who Has Never Killed An Hour?

I still reach for my glasses on the nightstand a month after I threw them away
It just goes to show how long it takes to get used to changes
Even the ones that you choose to make
I had very bad luck on Halloween
I didn’t want to try to pretend to be happy
Once you make a mistake, even if you apologize
You won’t look the same in someone’s eyes

I’ll write out how mad I am at you on the train
It’s where I do my best thinking
The conductor was wearing a mask for the day
And I was struck by fear at how much I can relate
I realized I wear a fake face
Hide the real me ‘cause I’m ashamed

Who are we if not our thoughts?
Or does the doubt make us strong enough to fight off what hides underneath
God, I hope so because right now I feel so fucking weak
I want to be better
Could you find yourself between my lines?
Anyone can if they try, but it’s no use
I’m more selfish than I seem
I don’t really sing about anyone but me

My head’s underwater with my nose up to breathe
I lay there an count my self-centered heartbeats
The same blood will always pump through me
And that thought alone was so terrifying
And how can I change if I can’t be different in every single way?

My head’s underwater with my nose up to breathe
I lay there an count my self-centered heartbeats
The same blood will always pump through me
And that thought alone was so terrifying
And how can I change if I can’t be different in every single way?