When Words Fail, Music Speaks pt.ll

[Verse 1]
Fuck
Wanna take this back to the start of us
'Cause when we argue, I'm drifting like Maseratis does
The hardest part, know that I'm ignorant and my heart is fucked
Karmas come, now I'm just missing you while I spark this blunt
We never text at all, she still rejecting calls
Tension, attention to the pressure and the stress I've caused
Please protect me Lord, I think I'm sinking deeper
Slowly to the reaper and it's seeming that I'm set to fall
All my selfish ways could wreck you and affect your thoughts
I've been neglecting self to focus on protecting yours
I want better thoughts, I best reflect then pause
For seconds where I let the seconds go
Because the stress is more than I can take
I think I'm dying but my souls awake
She's crying threats of suicide upon my shoulder blades
How the fuck am I the one to take this all away?
Girl, all I did was walk on by and leave you there to cause the pain

[Verse 2]
I lost her for this bitch and this girl
This gift is my curse, it's witty how I'm quick with my words
See this 30-minute threesome means the end of my world
But I flirt when I'm on the roads just like a rental for Hertz
And it hurts her, she knows I'll only sorta change
The same impulses hit my pulses then it's all the same
I'm such a fuck up I'm disgusting man thats all I say
All i wanted was a wife I swear thats all I pray
But thats a contradiction, so this ain't right for you
I'm such a constant dick head, I still can't lie to you
We might be broke for the minute, girl, I'll provide for you
And ride for you, literally Bonnie and Clyde ta die for you
Get high with you, don't give a fuck for my health
How can a man love his girl if he ain't lovin' himself?
And that's real, don't give a fuck for my health
How can this man love his girl if he ain't lovin' himself?