What You Thought of Me

(Verse)
Sending out apologies to people who had thought of me
As someone much more than they had heard - but fuck it, honestly
Why would I let a negative comment bother me?
I won't be at my top game with dampened psychology
Sitting in a rut, I don't know what to do
People giving lists and saying "This is what you've gotta prove"
Well I'm sure God approves, but as for all of you
I know you wanna see a fire burning in my molecules
Sitting fueled up, and now I have my spark
I mostly write my raps, when I have a broken heart
Staring at a blank page, and trying to focus hard
So you can hear me scrutinize myself cause of single flaws
I realize this life is what you make it
But it's hard to create when lately I've been jaded
Sitting still, concentrated, wonderin' if I coulda made it
While breaking down to self pity and I hate it