What I Really Learned in Study Hall

Waking up right next to you
Is the last thing that I want to do
Knowing you don't care
'Cause you're spineless and too much to take
My kindness was a big mistake
It gets me nowhere
And I've been reading through your letters
Hoping you might never make up your mind
And I, I wish I was a boy again
Where I could still pretend you were mine (at least for tonight)

I'm drinking too much these days it never seems to help
'Cause you say I'll never change
And I'm the only one who I care about when you say

That you're leaving and you're ready to go
'Cause you thought I was cheating
But I don't think you want to know
Well I think that things are better this way
When it seems like you're breathing
But you're already dead to me

Making up my mind on you
Is something I wish I could do
But you're so damn thoughtless and I'm not going to lose
To any of these games you play
'Cause no one likes you anyway
You're just a faceless name
So what will you say
When I tell you that your life's like a book
It's torn and tattered sitting on a shelf
Where no one wants to look

And I'm sure
That this is what we want
As your face begins to haunt my memories
And seep into my future dreams
Where no one can hear you scream

That you're leaving and you're ready to go
'Cause you thought I was cheating
But I don't think you want to know
Well I think that things are better this way
When it seems like you're breathing
But you're already dead to me