What I’m Feelin’

[Hook: Sarah Violette]
What I'm feelin', what I'm feelin', what I feel right now?
One second I feel depressed, the next I feel proud
In a minute you can't guess just what I feel now
I'm just tryna take a step back figure myself out
What I'm feelin', what I'm feelin', what I feel right now?
One second I feel depressed, the next I feel proud
In a minute you can't guess just what I feel now
I'm just tryna take a step back figure myself out

[Verse 1: Sarah Violette]
What I'm feelin', what I'm feelin', what I feel right now?
One second I feel depressed, the next I feel proud
In a minute you can't guess just what I feel now
I'm just tryna take a step back figure myself out
Every flaw is set back, so how do I strengthen?
I feel my whole set's wack, but they want it lengthened
My role is so small, ocean bottom of plankton
Got my pen set to write, but I'm feelin' so blanked in
The words never sank in, neither did I
That experience was serious, I needed to fly
But yo I'm frail, and I failed, and depleted inside
Who cares if I prevail, I deleted my pride
The view scenic and I've seen it in the sea of my eye
What do I feel, how do I feel it, is it real or a lie?
Should I feed it, when I feel it, should I kill it or not?
I make believe I am the realest, then I fill in the plot
The whole story's so boring, yo I'm still in a box
I need to break outta my brain, get outta the clock
Outta monotony, I'm bored, yet so much to be done
Second class citizen just diggin' for that freedom
Nah I won't serve, I swerve, I can't lead 'em
Yeah she got some nerve, those words, she gon' eat 'em
Well baby let me read 'em, I'm glad to shout it
Let me feel good without feelin' bad about it

[Hook: Sarah Violette]
What I'm feelin', what I'm feelin', what I feel right now?
One second I feel depressed, the next I feel proud
In a minute you can't guess just what I feel now
I'm just tryna take a step back figure myself out
What I'm feelin', what I'm feelin', what I feel right now?
One second I feel depressed, the next I feel proud
In a minute you can't guess just what I feel now
I'm just tryna take a step back figure myself out

[Verse 2: Sarah Violette]
What I'm thinking, what I've thought, what I'm tryna convey
Yo let me drink another shot, so I could finally say
Just what I mean, when I mean it, nothing subtle to write
I'm the daughter, under water tryna juggle her life
See as a teen, I was serene, and I struggled to fight
'Cause I was busy catching beams in my puddle of light
And my peers were drinking beers, I would funnel the sight
Shit am I different, am I queer, or just the one who is was right?
'Cause I was thinking all these thoughts I was tryna convey
Who was lost, was it me, in this tiny array?
Well if you starving for the thought, I suggest you take the food from it
I could feel something but then I disapprove of it
It grows, and it grows and that is when I bottle it
Feelings try to show so I talk myself out of it
'Cause I don't wanna feel that, its pain with a pleasure
Wet when it's dry, it's the rain in the desert
It's strain altogether, rejection, I could taste it
I hate it so much, I'll step and stay faceless
Before I ever face it, and maybe that is smart of me
Maybe it's the reason only you could take my heart from me
Maybe it has sharpened me or maybe it's destructive
Maybe it's the feelin', if not then tell me what is
Tell me what my gut is, how is it intuitive?
Don't know how to feel, all I know is how to move and live

[Hook: Sarah Violette]
What I'm feelin', what I'm feelin', what I feel right now?
One second I feel depressed, the next I feel proud
In a minute you can't guess just what I feel now
I'm just tryna take a step back figure myself out
What I'm feelin', what I'm feelin', what I feel right now?
One second I feel depressed, the next I feel proud
In a minute you can't guess just what I feel now
I'm just tryna take a step back figure myself out