Haze

[Hook: Lady Essence]
Im in a haze, searching for the clarity
It's hard to play, so work has been my therapy
Its hard to say, so let me write it carefully
Im grateful for today in case tomorrow isn't there for me
But I swear, If you could finally bear with me
You would find anxiety dying to take the air from me
Its, suffocation and suffering' patients a stare at me
Im, stuck with satan, he's just been waiting to marry me

[Verse 1: Lady Essence]
Commitment's like a buried ring, that I don't dare to find
Others only want it, to flaunt it and say the wear the shine
Eventually they wear the shine, that's when the sun fades
Say my spouse left me, my house is empty on Sundays
Yeah, he took the kids too, I wouldn't kid you
Now you understand, why my heart is hard to give you
Why life is hard to live through, cause I love you
I'm workin' overtime no time for thinkin' of you-
Gotta stay ambitious, get riches is what I must do
If bitches wanna fuck you, I gotta let it go-
Gotta walk it off, not cause us an episode
Or call you on the telephone, cause I refuse too
Most would call it love, but me, Im too unusual

[Hook: Lady Essence]
Im in a haze, searching for the clarity
Its hard to play so work has been my therapy
Its hard to say, so let me write it carefully
Im grateful for today incase tomorrow isn't there for me
But I swear if you could finally bear with me
You would find anxiety dyin to take the air for
Its, suffocation and sufferin' patients a stare at me
Im stuck with satan he's just been waitin to marry me
Im in a haze, searchin for the clarity
Its hard to play so work has been my therapy
Its hard to say, so let me write it carefully
Im grateful for today incase tomorrow isn't there for me
But I swear if you could finally bear with me
You would find anxiety dying to take the air from me

[Verse 2: Lady Essence]
And Im the type to feel the pressure in excess
I hope this year isn't better than the next
I hope this fear of depression doesn't set
My focus is clear but I can't measure my success I guess
Im just unsure how to, the money I make
Won't equal what I amount to
Running in place tryna even out profound truths
Trying not to dream while I'm sleeping in a sound booth
Wish I could live life sound proof
Sick of all the talking, all too often it could drown out
The beauties of the life that I write when I drown out
I keep the secret when Im found out
For now I need an answer, could you tell me what success is?
The person I become, or the clothes that I dress in?
Stocks I'll invest in that could drop any second
Maybe its who Im not that I've got interest in
And is it failure Im afraid of?
Or those I let down when Im tryna make my way up
But those who I surround always seem to take my days up
Then they ain't around when I need someone to wait up
So could you tell me what success is?
Looking through the haze, in a daze, feeling breathless