What I Long For Lyrics
[Intro]
Yeah
Dreams of having friends and an ideal family
I’ve always wanted that
[Verse 1]
Uh, wake up to the smell of food
Still sore and drowsy but receive the Saturday morning feel
Morning breeze get outta bed and wash up
In a place where I’m not in comatose or caught up
Head to the kitchen I see a bunch of same aged people
Greeting me with smiles all sitting by the dinner table
I ask the question of what’s for breakfast
They tell me to do the next step on the checklist
Then we eat together enjoy an ideal conversation
No bad blood, arguments, and no bad relations
Wishing, day dreaming of a day like that
While everyone is living I’m just in my head all sad
Cause I keep wanting friends, I’m not satisfied
If only my so called friends knew that I had lied
I don’t have nobody near that has the same vision
Nobody close to me, nobody with my same dreams
Stuck in my own passion, driven by my own hate
When will there ever be something happy in my fate
I’m locked in my tiny cage but nobody is here
Fear is now pushing and I’ve lost all that I held dear
Guess I’m too abstract and strange, alienated
I need outside influence or else I won’t make it
I hate myself, I fail at this rap thing
Cause nobody’s pushing me to be better at anything
That’s why I don’t like going to church no more
No inspiration, I always see a bunch of closed doors
Don’t wanna join a label for more beats and sales
I just want a family like Reach Records type of tale
And whenever I think of a crew I always think this
Children Record type of crew K project type of crew
Each one of us with our own individual color
Our own stories but together we’re another thing
A team with special talents, a faction, a league
Not like YMCMB, not like Triple JMC
This my dream, my team, day one type of guys
Growing, encouraging, and fighting together
As one nothing may stand against us
For we have each other and God above us
I don’t know if this is considered a greed or a need
But I hope this will come, this is what I fiend
I don’t care about money, a nice car or house
I want an actual home, I don’t really need a spouse
I hope this feeling will eventually go away
Because I can’t stand this way being in my way
You’re one of us, we love you, we’re family
That’s what I wanna hear from somebody
A dream, a dream, a lifetime wish man
If only somebody could take me as I am
I’m so sick, I’m so tired of those phrases
The ones that say we care about you pages
If you really did you would know what I’m going through
But you don’t so you don’t know what I’m going through
God has a plan for me, God has a life for me
I hope I don’t have to keep up with this fake me
Lone Wolf stuff I’m so over with I hate you Sigma
I’m getting dizzy of this cliché feeling, nausea
Yeah, uh, I want to be looked after
That way I can finally say happily ever after
On my journey, in my road, on my way
I need some hands to hold while I go on my way