Web of Memories

I'm amnesia. Be forgotten. Bury myself in a coffin
Or should I say a sarcophagus. My tomb you cannot walk in
I'm the reason for my sadness. Nights with depression
Alice got me through this madness. Futaba my obsession
Learning lessons? Never. Burning bridges like Endeavor
Kitchen how a nigga sever every bond
Thought that I was clever now I'm seeking out a better way
To deal with my doubt, but my conscience won't respond
I think it's AFK. Brain blown. JFK. I have too many dreams I go out the same way
Living out the same simulation everyday
Scary part is I accept the cliche
Can't sleep. Staying up bumping Lil Peep, Mac, and Tentacion
Really sad them niggas gone
Wondering what could've been. Doesn't matter in the end
Hard to trust a fucking soul, so I limit all my friends
Honestly, just a few know the darkness held within
And I only leave the surface being seen wearing sheep skin
Dive in the abyss of despair on the weekend
Inner peace in my mind what I'm always seeking
Miss my nigga Farley, I'm just being honest
Why he had to pass away? I swear he was the modest
Individual I knew on the fucking planet
I swear this world not fair like God damn it!
A nigga like me should've died. Lie to people in the eyes
Waste away my whole existence because I self despise
If he could talk I know what he'd say
"Stan, chill out. Please don't be that way"
But how can I do that when my fate has been bent?
I love all my blessings, but I have resentment
I have all these questions, but fate doesn't augment
For anybody, so why the fuck am I talking? Don't know man
Might pop a xan. Try to craft a master plan
R I P to Swevvy, wish I could've lent a helping hand
Didn't know the guy, but his pain I know too well
I just hope my music helped him feel a little less ill
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