Villain

[Intro]
It's been so hard to...
Love and trust, I...
I looked in the mirror
And what did I see?
Turns out the villain is me

[Verse 1]
Pessimistically I’m narcissistic
Meaning link is in my bio and you all can click it
I'll only know I’m gifted based on the "likes" that I get
The dopamine inside my system it don't know the difference
Between the clout and love
I’m never down when you’re swiping up
And when it's dark sing a Facetune, lighten up
I think I'll never get the hang of this shit
If I’m suppressing misery through all the braggin' and shit
Wait, this is what I wanted, this is what I wanted
Sittin' in the meeting getting judged upon my numbers
Yeah, it's ironic all the numbers we be crunchin'
When really very few us is keepin' it 100
Yeah, I remember I was crying to sleep
I hid a girlfriend for six years, I’m finding my peace
I guess I hate the word "dyke" if it's flyin' at me
So I avoided any questions that would rile the sheep
And that was toxic, trippin' on my conscience
Heavily weighted I was taken over with nonsense
Living with these monsters inside me, it was constant
Rather be honest than be admired and accomplished
I'd rather be dead, cast out, rejected instead
Then feedin' into all the demons as they dance in my head
And no ones tells you when your dreams take off
Certain feelings you just can’t shake off

[Pre-Chorus]
It's been so hard to
Love and trust
I built these bridges
Just to burn them up
I looked in the mirror
And what did I see?
Turns out the villain is me

[Chorus]
Yeah, yeah, well...
Life goes on yeah
Life goes on... (Life goes on)
Hopin' someday
I can right my wrongs
I looked in the mirror
And what did I see?
Turns out the villain is me

[Verse 2]
It turns out from the people who been making me hurt
I’m the one who’s been allowing it and makin' it worse
They say that craziness is really just the same routine repeated
Then expecting all these different things to happen
Entrapment until ya mind is smothered
In a loop and often times it's disguised as comfort
In the booth talkin’ rhymes like I wanna cover
All the truth and suffering inside the good production
Good for nothin', I told my dad I graduated but I never did
I'm gettin' sick of people askin' if I'm having kids
I need to handle shit, and it's really not your business
Oh. you're an open book? Well damn, I’m a locked kindle
And no it's not simple now to really open up
Even if you’re showing love for me when things are goin' rough
How do I know that you won’t switch up?
So I'ma cut you out the damn picture

[Pre-Chorus]
It's been so hard to
Love and trust
I built these bridges
Just to burn them up
I looked in the mirror
And what did I see? (What did I see?)
Turns out the villain is me

[Chorus]
Yeah, yeah, well...
Life goes on yeah
Life goes on... (Life goes on)
Hopin' someday
I can right my wrongs
I looked in the mirror
And what did I see?
Turns out the villain is me