Up And Down

[Verse]
Feel like I'm losing the plot
Feel like a loser a lot
I forgot what I want to achieve with my music I need this confusion to stop
Even though I said bye to Jordan
I've still got that noose in a knot
Not sure if ill use it or not
F-F-F-Fuck that, I'm refusing to flop
Cause I gotta stay focused and make a change
Escape the dark and break the chains
From makers mark and placing blame
To making marks and taking aim, It's my life
Yeah gotta prove 'em wrong
Can't look back now gotta move along
Gotta cruise with the bruises refusing to lose cause I choose to improve when the musics on, Yeah
I just wanna do my best, but there's so many things that produce my stress
I've been sitting in a Dugite's nest where I patiently wait for a snake who would chew my flesh
Same dudes who would root my ex
But I still gotta few guys left
Shout outs to my crew
I ain't got huge biceps but I do my reps
As the moonlight sets, I expect the worst
I'm not quite sure if I'm blessed or cursed
So I'm putting in extra work
I don't wanna be the best in Perth
Just the best on Earth
Sometimes I forget my worth
Sometimes I just get so depressed it hurts
Sometimes I don't really wanna live another minute but giving ups for quitters and respect is earned
STAY STRONG
Gotta tell myself that
And help excel my welcomed health back
Lost it all, Shell was hell tapped, dropped the ball, and felt the world crack
Woke up and I had an epiphany, have to commit to a pattern and my passion prolifically, I just wanna be rapping terrifically with a rapid delivery, doesn't matter if you happen to critic me 'cause..
This is all I know
What a life
I remember the day that I gotta mic
Kids at school would say I forgot I'm white
Now the same cunts play me on Spotify, Huh
Gotta thank my foes
They would tease me for wearing those gangsta clothes
I was pulled down lower than an anchor goes
But that just shows how far through the ranks I rose
Much love to my fans and supporters
You're the reason I stand and record this
You were there when my Nikes were blood stained
And still there when abandoning Jordan
You were there when I started this music
You were there for the panic disorders
Saw me go to hell and back like Humpty Dumpty lord knows that this man has been haunted
I don't know if I'll make it or not, but I feel less stressed every page that I jot so I'll say what I want to the day that I drop and I'll pray I can take all my mates to the top
So I'ma do what I need to do
'Cause you believe in me and I believe in you
I keep going cause you're giving me a reason too
This is just the beginning I ain't leaving soon
I've been up and down
I've been underground
I've been climbing mountains to get this fucking crown
I've been up and down
I've been underground
Got these rappers saying no, no, no, no, no, but

[Chorus]
I've been up and down
I've been underground
I've been climbing mountains to get this fucking crown
I've been up and down
I've been underground
Got these rappers saying no, no, no, no, no, but..
I've been up & down