Track 1:Cousin CJ (2026)

Single Release:Cousin CJ
(Writing you the best I can do I wrote to you haven’t heard back… will I hear back? Grandma…)

(talk about the wildest ride dreams weave memories coincide)-chorus

My older cousin was a great friend he would always attend family gatherings and other happenings we would play army and wrestle in the yard he always let me win. They lived in southern Illinois he was my pen pal writing letters back and forth telling him about neighborhood drama and trips up north I remember him fondly he walked through life so nonchalantly he inspired me to dream big we aspired to be astronauts and battle aliens and robots since we were kids my dreams weave and my memories coincide it’s no coincidence I remember these memories so vividly visually he died so viciously trauma and my first time face to face with death my thirteen year old cousin a victim of suicide the letters he wrote bleed ink into the poems I’ve dried writings never been the same after he died because writing now bleeds from my veins when I’ve tried I left a Peter Pan pocket knife at his grave a McDonald’s happy meal that was 1998 I was six years old a little late to behold because even than I felt bold…

(I remember I was held back in first grade wonder if trauma played a role even the slightest of memories can take a toll we all grieve differently musical chairs invoke wildest imagination to the symphony)