Torn

[Verse 1]
I put God first to separate my day from the night
I turn my back and I don't know who first to pull out a knife
These days it really feel like all I got is my wife
I learn to only trust in Jesus when it come to my life
I feel like my best songs is when I put my feelings in it
They want me to let this go, but tell me, who this real with it
Lately I've been on a roll, I feel like I'm still winnin'
I still feel You in my soul even when I'm still sinnin'
Guess that's why I'm still in it
How come You still trust me?
Why am I so focused on wantin' people to love me?

[Chorus]
Been fightin' for acceptance since the day I was born
You ripped thе old me up into a million pieces, I'm torn
Now my family don't accеpt me, they want me to be the old me
Friends don't accept me, they want me to be the old me
I think the biggest problem these days is they don't know me
Been searchin' for love in the wrong places when I'm lonely

[Verse 2]
I fell off my level and You brought me back
I felt so much pressure like a heart attack
I just wanna go to heaven, give my all for that
And I don't really care how much it costs for that, just wanna get that offer back
It's been free, You made the seed and then You planted that within me
Now it feel like I'm just doin' this off instinct
You givin' all these gifts away like Oprah Winfrey
I can't believe You picked me
No longer do this for myself, I only do this for the Lord
I sacrifice myself and still give God all the glory

[Chorus]
Been fightin' for acceptance since the day I was born
You ripped the old me up into a million pieces, I'm torn
Now my family don't accept me, they want me to be the old me
Friends don't accept me, they want me to be the old me
I think the biggest problem these days is they don't know me
Been searchin' for love in the wrong places when I'm lonely

[Verse 3]
I know some people feel like I'm a hypocrite
Because I preach the gospel and I still sin
I'm sorry that I make mistakes like any person
And I'm sorry I'm so perfectly imperfect
At least I'm not tryin' to live it in repetition
I know some quote-on-quote Christians don't know the definition
Who only claimin' religion to get some recognition
And they be only praisin' God for they self-intentions

[Outro]
Feel like the devil count my sins, he keepin' score
I read the Bible to be busy now, not when I'm bored
Been fightin' for acceptance since the day I was born
You ripped the old me up into a million pieces, I'm torn