To The Wanton Will of a Harlot’s Hand

[Intro]
I promise not to let you down again (Woah)
I fucked it up but I know it will never be
One, two, three, four!

[Verse 1]
I'm drowning myself in troubles once again
So I’ll don the life vest that I had to many times before
I headed down to the bar to have a drink or ten
And I'll stumble to your house and I'll whisper in your ear

[Chorus]
I promise not to let you down again (Woah)
I fucked it up but I swear this time it'll be different and
I'll fall asleep at the foot of your bed
And in the morning, I'll forget every goddamn word I said
Every goddamn word I said!

[Verse 2]
This hangover is the only thing I feel
This pounding in my head, it seems to be the only thing that's real
When I open up my eyes and see the sun, people outside having fun
So I draw my shades so tight

[Chorus]
I know that I let you down again (Woah)
I fucked it up and I know it'll never be different and
I'm stuck in the cycle of self-loathing and despair
Medication, and soon to be added to that list: self-immolation

[Outro]
On this mattress where I poured the gasoline
These bloody ashes are all that they'll ever find of me and
I'm not a fucking martyr, this was not a sacrifice (Woah)
I'm just a fucking loser who could not deal with his life
I'm not a fucking martyr, this was not a sacrifice (Woah)
I'm not a fucking martyr, this was never a sacrifice