tired

[Verse 1]
Yeah, sick of all the time I've been hurtin'
Every single day, it worsens
I write down a verse, and
It slightly helps, but it doesn't take it away
I don't think I'll find a way
I'm insane, it all feels the same
Remember those nights I spent cryin'
You saved me, you helped me from dyin'
You the reason I kept fightin'
And now, you're gone!
Should've known all along
That you weren't fine
Should've known that you wanted to die
I never once saw you cry
Never once saw tears in your eyes
I didn't know you also had to fight just to stay alive
But I swear, there'll be a day where I see you again
And I'll make it up to you that night
Outta sight, outta mind
That's what they tell me when I talk about you
I seriously can't get you outta my mind
Not after you helped me get better
All the nights you let me cry in your arms, it saved me from feelin' lesser

[Verse 2]
I don't even know what I'm fightin' for
Don't think there's a reason anymore
I remember nights, almost took my life
Put the blade to my neck
I just wanna end up dead
I remember every word you said
But it's pointless now, you're not here to help
I can't feel better 'bout myself
You can't get me outta this hell
Eyes wide shut to your pain
You was also losin' your mind
I'm probably the reason you went insane
I'm I'm the reason, I drove you to die
I never let you talk, it was only 'bout me
But you never cared, you always loved me
But you never wanted to talk, just wish I could've saved you
Just wish I could embrace you
Bring you back in my life
It won't happen, I'm out of my mind
Just a shell of a man, hopin' to make it
But sick of my life, shit, I might just take it
I'm so sick of the fakin'
Don't know how much longer I'll last
And to be honest, I don't even know if I'll make it