done with this (intro)

[Intro]
Uh, look, been feelin' those feelin's, the one's that make you fade
The ones that run through your mind, the ones that make you decay
I say I'm okay, but I ain't, haven't been for days
Don't wanna be here, but I fight, so I can live the life I want to
The life she'd want me to live, but you left, after all I taught you
Have you ever wanted to die when the memories haunt you?
Shit, I have, and I need someone to talk to

[Verse]
No one wants to talk, and that's fine
I see, you just want me to die
Always yell, ring the bell, but I run around in my mind
Thoughts don't slow down, tryna get through the pain
I can't feel happy, not even a bit, I always feel the same
Fucked-up mind, I never felt fine, I always think I'm insane
I tell all these lies, mask makes it hide, but my life, I wanna take
I feel like my mental is what's gon' destroy me
I just want someone to adore me
Feelin' like I'll never get better, but I've gotta try
Tryin' for ma, tryin' for her, tryin' so much, but I wanna die
I try to understand what cards I've been dealt, the ones I've got in my hand
But I understand these cards are what lead a gun in my hand
Screamin', cryin', I feel like I'm dyin', 'cause I've always been hurtin'
Try to understand what I did to feel so damn worthless
No one hears a word I say, I say too much, but it's wordless
I'm not worth the help, not worth the love, nah, not worth it
I try to get better, but nothin' ever help, I'm hurt
Try to fight my mind, but cut my arms, cry for help, I struggle to find my worth
Depression has been messin' wit' me, and I'm ready to let it
Get to me, lost the angel sent to me, but the bullet, she sent it
Straight to her head, watched her die, now, I'll always resent it
'Cause I could've saved her, but I pushed away the good person I was given
I pushed her emotions away, same with my own, she never saw the depression, it was hidden
Wish I would've talked to her, or let her talk, I'll always regret that I didn't
But I've been runnin', runnin', runnin', and it's 'cause all this pain, I hid it
Just let go, don't let me know that I'm worthy
How can I been worthy when everyone hurt me?
Just let me go, just let me die
I don't wanna keep up the lies
But I don't wanna let 'em know that I'm not fine
I'm just so damn ready to die
I'm off flow, but they don't know all the pain I hide
I was caught, tho, but then, I let her die
Let her fade away, I could've saved the angel in my life
But now, she's gone, and I'm ready to take my life, damn