Three of Swords

My heart been broken into pieces from the start
No, I never fit in, didn’t play that part
Was eleven years old, cutting blades in the dark
Only tell it how it is, this the way that it start
No, I don’t feel any love with these blades in my heart
It's the same as Three of Swords, guess what’s on my tarot cards
I don’t mean to be a bother but I wonder what it costs
When you sell yourself out and you know you’re really lost
Is it eating you at night? Think I see it when you talk
You could leave it all behind, and so can I, why not?
I don’t really wanna try, I don’t think you wanna watch
Life a race against the clock and I don't know how much I got
But I didn’t live enough, and I admit that I’d given up
Lifting up my head when I’m waking up, instead
I’ve been wishing I was dead, but I can’t leave yet
There’s just too much left that’s been left unsaid
By me, by I
By the one who sees through my eyes
I can’t leave, but I can’t decide
What does it mean that I am alive?
It seems to me I only live inside my dreams
That’s why I’m making them mine
With the help of some others with similar minds
I developed a skill I will use till I die