Thoughts of a broken mind

(Intro: Shiloh Dynasty & Enjoyhell)
You are a stranger
She wonders why?
I don't trust nobody (I don't trust nobody)
Not even her
You are a stranger
She wonders why?
I don't trust nobody (Yuh)
Not even her
Not even- (Okay)

(Verse)
Curses, curses
I feel like I’m worthless
Slowly escalating to the top but I’m still hurting
Burdened, burdened
Locked up in my cell of a room I swear I’m feeling so damn fucking deserted
Is it worth it?
Missed your FaceTime I’m imperfect
Always tryna fix everyone else like I’m the surgeon
I’m always fucking there when nobody be there for me
Like it’s just written in my DNA got love inside my genes
I swear to god they all telling me they love me
Back then they used to fucking tell me I was nothing
Funny how they switch up once I get the fucking bucks in
Fake ass people reasons why I just can’t trust shit
Can I trust my friends?
Am I alone until the end?
Will I ever fucking make it out this hell that I live in?
I wake up in the morning just to puke at six A.M
Anxiety got me wishing that I was just fucking dead

Glock up to my head fill my brain up with the lead
Can I end my fucking pain and just forget my life instead?
Live my life constantly fiending my body is filled with dread
It’s been two damn years since I been off of my meds
Hold that shit just like a medal fuck the xans I’m back again
Yet everyday keep on struggling I crave it till I’m dead
So I lay here in my bed and go to sleep a fucking gain
Inside I’m a fucking demon but outside I’m heaven sent
So what the fuck do you expect?

I don’t cut I spit my blood into the microphone
Crisscrossed personality bud and patron
I write my raps from all the times that I have felt alone
And fuck all of the people who done left me at the tone
I’m fucking anxious in my home
I take these hits straight to the dome
Pack another fucking bowl and take a hit to calm my soul
I can feel it in my body all these drugs have took their toll
But I just gotta keep on rapping know that I’m about to blow

Always had that fucking dream to headline my own show
And I know that it gone happen you can't stop me no more
You ain’t ever gonna stop me I’m gone do it with my fam
With my friends, with my girl, and my motherfucking fans
I done went from being sad to making music for the bands
I just went and fucking ordered some new clothes straight from Japan

You can’t tell me anymore I’m not a motherfucking man
All the pain and shit I go through on the daily is no scam
And I’m writing all this music just to be a helping hand
For anyone who be hanging on as long as they can
Swear to god I understand
Living life’s a fucking pain
It’s why I put it in my words and put that shit onto the page
I done killed the fucking game don’t give a fuck about my age
I done poured my fucking heart out and I’m fried out of my brain
Borderline fucking insane
Ain’t nobody keep me tame
I’m gonna keep on fucking rapping til' the day they know my name so