​this is all so futile

[Intro]
"Then there is no hope at all."
"No, Zuko! You must never give in to despair. Allow yourself to slip down that road and you surrender to your lowest instincts. In the darkest times, hope is something you give yourself. That is the meaning of inner strength."

[Verse 1]
Yeah my bed ain't go no sheets
Haven't showered in a week
Pop two pills to go to sleep
Nothing special bout me
I don't wanna die no more, I wanna feel alive
But sometimes, my mind
Goes back to that place
Staring death right in her face
Motherfuck this world
Disappear without a trace
Wish I could tell my friends how I really feel
But it don't matter, in the end they weren't real

[Pre-Hook]
This is all so futile, but I still try
Climbing back up, but I don't know why
Need to learn to love myself cause there's still hate inside
Wake up in the morning, and I still wanna die

[Hook]
This is all so futile, but I still try
Climbing back up, but I don't know why
Need to learn to love myself cause there's still hate inside
Wake up in the morning, and I still wanna die
This is all so futile, but I still try
Climbing back up, but I don't know why
Need to learn to love myself cause there's still hate inside
Wake up in the morning, and I still wanna die

[Verse 2]
"Why you always tired, you don't even leave the house?
Haven't heard from you in months, what the fuck is that about?
You don't have it as bad as me
Your whole life is a tragedy
But you're still alive
That's some shit that I'm glad to see"
Every step I take, I fall two back
They would leave me in the end, yeah I wish I knew that
Yeah I hate this world, but I hate myself more
Yeah I burn my bridges just so I can feel the warmth
Life was more fun, when I wasn't sober
All the pain left, but I ain't get no closure
Never had a chance, me and Denzel in the same boat
I can't wait till we all float

[Hook]
This is all so futile, but I still try
Climbing back up, but I don't know why
Need to learn to love myself cause there's still hate inside
Wake up in the morning, and I still wanna die
This is all so futile, but I still try
Climbing back up, but I don't know why
Need to learn to love myself cause there's still hate inside
Wake up in the morning, and I still wanna die

[Outro]
"If you start stirring up trouble, we could lose all the good things that are happening for us."
"Good things that are happening for you! Have you ever thought that I want more from life than a nice apartment and a job serving tea?"
"There is nothing wrong with a life of peace and prosperity. I suggest you think about what it is that you want from your life and why."
"I want my destiny."
"What that means is up to you."