The Veteran

Regarding the person that i used to be
Clinging to maximes
That i once claimed important to myself
A strangeness took place
Somewhere inside of me
Where i once supposed the core
Of my soul

I'm so tired of fighting myself
If i could only give in, i'd be the first one to
Leave this mess
But i'm stuck, like trapped in a ruin
Until i become the veteran
Of my own war
This is my war

I feel it's time to leave this state
This place, my home
Forever from now
And never come back
Never again
But it feels like i'm just left
To set it all ablaze
Though i'd rather watch the flames
Erase the ruin from afar

I'm so tired of fighting myself
If i could only give in, i'd be the first one to
Leave this mess
But i'm stuck, like trapped in a ruin
Until i become the veteran
Of my own war
This is my war

From now on i declare war against myself
I can't let this win over me