The Storm

[Verse]
Why must I fight the pain
Taking over my brain
When i can pretend to be sane
With a blank face

Got nowhere to go
I think I’ve lost control
Pouring out my soul
Onto a blank page

And I’ve fought the good fight for too long
Looking up to heaven when my faith is gone
Screaming out at god inside every song
Can Somebody tell me what i fucking did wrong

But then the beat drops and im ready to go
I’ve got a stylized flow headed straight for you
And im only doing what i was made to do
So why is everybody treating me like a fool

I don’t know
But I kinda like it
People think I’m stupid till they hear the hype shit
You know I tell the truth so why the fuck you lyin’
You ain’t never gonna make it why the fuck
You tryin’

Im a fuckin lion
Im a carnivore
Welcome to my mind let me give you a tour
If you look to your left you’ll see a locked up door

Believe me
You don’t wanna go in
Cuz the lion will find you and feed on your sin
Until there’s nothing else left but your peeling skin
Old me is over
New me begins

If you look over there deep down in the past
You’ll see the little boy who always got picked last
He had no real friends, so he had a blast
With the ones in his mind till they fired back

And they tried to control him and make him a slave
A slave to the past that he couldn’t erase
So, one day he fought back and he started to change
Into a madman, a sad man
A fucking disgrace
But he didn’t stop he continued to hustle
No matter the weather with brains and muscles
And he always dreamed he’d be up on that stage
And he always dreamed he would get there one day
And so, he kept writing and so he kept fighting
The matches were there he just had to ignite em

Too many fears with releasing emotions
Feeling emotionless numb and so frozen
Honestly pray that this is the explosion
I need to let it all out and release
All of my demons this personal beast
Too many things that I used to keep hidden but now it’s a story time over this beat
Never could I show a sign of frustration
Parents said no you must stay dedicated
Hold it all in so I did it forever, but I can’t control my rage and agitations
Feel like I’ve lost it, brain is exhausted
Wish I could put all my thoughts in coffin
Plenty embarrassments plenty regrets
Went on a binge for over a month
Tired of smiling and showing a front
My life is a mess I don’t want to confront
I guess when someone made you feel incredible
Finally leaves you just need the euphoria
She gave to you, so you act unprofessional
Zero coherence and caught in dysphoria
Couple months later I haven’t got over it
Couple months later I don’t want to open it
Couple months later and everyone notices
I’m more depressed and I’m losing my mind
I’m going insane cause I must with the rhymes
Surrounded by rage but I turned to a mime
Can’t even speak to the people I trust
And I’ve had enough now it’s time to erupt

Too many fears with such vulnerabilities
Too many fears living with disabilities
I know that I say that stuff doesn’t get to me
Honestly I’ve had enough of the misery
Used to be able to walk in a room
Light the mood up with whatever I’d do
Now when I do I feel like a disgrace
I know that they know about all my mistakes
Sometimes I don’t even know how I’m living with all of these feelings and personal demons
Twitch and I jump out of bed every night man I can’t even sleep or just handle me dreaming
Thinking about everything I did wrong
Wondering why I still do not belong
In a society where I’m accepted and people connected to me and my songs
Deep down I’m sorry I know I’m a hypocrite
Preaching sobriety can’t even get to it
Life with anxiety feeling so tense and the pressure’s immense but I’ll always deliver it
Had to disperse I just had to be heard
Somebody out there just take in my words
Can’t even speak to the people I trust
And I’ve had enough now it’s time to erupt