The Secret Life of an American Teenaged Vampire (you can’t spell “Executive Dysfunction” without ”cute.”)​

I was over it but I'm not anymore
I was coping fine, but I'm not anymore

I was manic beyond belief but more emotionally stable
I was panicking every time I left the house but I was able
To go to work and face the music
To go to work and try to care
This trauma won't haunt me forever, but that doesn't mean that it just isn't there

Vampire, I stay in and hide
Cause I know just what'll happen when I step in direct view of piercing sunlight, I'll die

But, oh god, really I'm afraid someone who I barely knew in high school
Will make awkward eye contact with me, they'll say hello, how are you, how's school
They'll ask me where I go to college
I'll feel so sick I'll puke right there
And god, it's not unrealistic, every morning I'm already halfway there from the stress

I feel like I'm wasting my time
Trying to make these emotions rhyme
Cuz they're all so discordant and all so disjointed
That it never really comes out right
And I feel like all of my past lives
Are disconnected from my timeline
And I don't think about 'em, cause some of them were assholes
And I don't remember half that shite

And I feel like a fraud when I try to talk about all of the things I really feel
I've been so mistreated that I can't even really trust the things I know are real
I don't know that I'll ever find peace or sanity, I think this is how I've always been
Everything that you did to break me makes me feel like I should just fucking quit this life

And I feel this til I fall asleep
In my love's gentle jaws
I don't think I've ever touched real ground, I don't think that this ever ends
My head's still abuzz with thoughts
Our electrical signal is always on
Gently rending lightning from my fingertips
My tears differ in anaglyph