The Pool

The room's new carpet, and the walls' apartment hue add to the visitor feeling I'm used to
The morning window's freezing from outside. It wakes me up
Wasting air to the falling light

Angel, you picked me up but the devil wants me too
I never gave a fuck, so why the fuck should you?

I awoke in a fog with an ache, at a loss
You were faking through relationships to rot
This is not my home anymore

All my accomplishments are joined with asterisks
So in a few years they're meaningless

Darling, I can't erase it, but could you forget my lies?
We were the slut and the self-made mess
Please know I tried

Smile, smile
Smile for all
I can't smile anymore

I skip rocks to mock the clashing tide
It's encroaching on our side
The wave parade is drowning me out too
It breaks me up
Wish I could have done more to you
They used your body up, leaving your guts dry
But you never gave a fuck, so why the fuck should I?

Now the face escapes me, but the shame's forever
When I get the nerve to test the death for life renewal
You'll find me lying at the bottom of the pool
And when I'm face down in that water, don't pick me up
Cause I'll be face down in that water next to you
It will be better underwater
Don't pick me up