The “Physical” Realm, Pt. 1

I feel physical again and I think it's a bad thing
Do you start to feel unhappy?
The joy-
The joy that gives me a feeling of anxiety at the same time
Why does it give you a feeling of anxiety?
Because it seems it wants to take me over too much
And I don't want to let my self go
Uhh..
Do you think it could happen if you let yourself go?
Uh.. It seems so ecstatic and perfect, that perhaps I can

No matter how much I'm seeing or how much I'm pretending to see
Because all of a sudden I see you sitting there, and I don't see the background at all

Oh. Then you see here is some kind of a split?
Yes
From what you know you see, and what you feel you see?

Yes, I feel as though that I have some sort of entrance to emotional life, uhh.. but yet I'm so anxious about the reality of it