On an slow moving diverse track about his own inner demons, Quadeca details phases in his mind and his issues with his inner demons, or “the man on his left shoulder.” Quadeca has noted this to be his best track he had ever made at the time of it’s release.
[Part I]
[Intro]
And when you may try
To hide away
Why do you hide away? (Ooh, ooh, ooh)
Why do you hide away? (Ooh, ooh, ooh)
Feeling like there's no room left for me (Ooh, ooh, ooh)
Feeling like there's (Ooh, ooh, ooh)
Nothing left (Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
And there's nothing more (Ooh, ooh, ooh)
[Pre-Chorus]
Used to give a fuck, that was just a old phase (Old phase)
You and me were close, now you further than the old days (Old days)
Sometimes, I wonder why I'm headed towards a cold place (Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
They like, “Let me fix you,” I don't fuck with Coldplay (No)
Yeah, wish I could forget, I cannot forgive, yeah
Every step- I gotta relive, yeah
Take a breath, feel it in my ribs, yeah
Let my voice fade into the mist
(Mist, mist, mist)
[Chorus]
Yeah!
I been talking to the man sitting on my left shoulder (Shoulder)
He said "Everything just gets worse when you're older" (Gettin' old)
I just pulled up to the function, can't even function (No, no)
Know nothin', I don't know nothin' (No, no)
[Verse 1]
I'm not one of you, I said I'm not (No, I'm not)
I only fucked with you because I want a spot (Uh huh)
Now that's what I got, but with it, went the plot (I do, yeah)
I checked the big picture, now that shit is getting cropped
Yeah, I've been feeling what I want is something less, uh
Feel like a sellout that ain't made a fucking cent, uh, guess I shoulda up and left (Yeah)
But I always told myself that I'm one of the good guys (Right?)
Well, maybe that's a good lie, yeah (Good lie, hahaha)
Everything looking like ashes- I don't want a car, I imagine it crashes
The man on my shoulder, he told me what happens, the glass is half empty? It actually shatters
He told me, "Don't look in the mirror without me!" He said the world would be clearer without me (No)
The man on my shoulder I think I believe him, I really don't want him, I think that I need him
Yeah
[Chorus]
Yeah!
I been talking to the man sitting on my left shoulder
He said "Everything just gets worse when you're older"
I just pulled up to the function, can't even function
Know nothin', I don't know nothin'
[Bridge]
Huh? Huh? Huh? (Aw—)
Yeah! What? Huh? Ayy, ayy! (—Shit! Huh? What? Yeah)
Huh, yeah (What? Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Damn! Damn! (Yeah, yeah, huh, oh, huh, ayy, hey)
[Verse 2]
I get too happy for money, huh, they all wanna back me for money (Uh huh, they do)
I put them hundreds all over my face, now I got acne from money, huh (Ah ha!)
I got it all in my bank, huh, I treat that shit like it's nothin' (Uh huh, nope)
I treat that shit like it's nothin', huh, I turned that nothin' to somethin', huh (It's nothin', uh huh, yeah-haha)
I put them bands on my face, huh, that won't make the man go away (No)
She put her hands on my waist, uh, but he still standin' in place, yeah (For real)
I wish I had more voices in my head to counteract you (Huh?)
I think that's why I have to sing about you (Yeah, yeah)
[Pre-Chorus]
Used to give a fuck, that was just an old phase (Old phase)
You and me were close, now you further than the old days (Old)
Sometimes I wonder why I'm headed towards a cold place (Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
They like, “Let me fix you,” I don't fuck with Coldplay (No)
Ayy, wish I could forget, I cannot forgive, yeah
Every step- I gotta relive, yeah
Take a breath, feel it in my ribs, yeah
Let my voice fade into the mist
Mist, mist, mist
[Chorus]
Yeah!
I been talking to the man sitting on my left shoulder
He said "Everything just gets worse when you're older"
I just pulled up to the function, can't even function
Know nothin', I don't know nothin'
[Part II]
[Verse]
I had a foot out the door
And the other one sunk in the floor, floor, floor
I was checkin' out of the store
I wonder who I'm doing this for, for, for
I was zonin' out of my class (Y-y-y-yeah!)
I love her, but I wish that she asked (Y-y-y-), she asked, she asked
Made too many shitty songs in the past
I hope my first impression wasn't the last... yeah
I hope there's plenty more, I hope this isn't the last
But if it is, do me a favor and make sure that it lasts- it lasts forever
I'd be lyin' if I said I didn't have regrets
Even from when they thought my life forgot to matter less
I started lookin' in the mirror for my eyes, and not my hair
Realized, I'll be alone, it do not matter if you're there
I still feel it, I still talk to the man on my shoulder
No matter who's hands on my shoulder, I'm the man in the corner
I know the answer, but I can't seem to fill in the bubble
I think I need to get outta mine
I like to think about what life will be like down the line (Y-y-y-yeah!)
But that's misleading, 'cause a line is infinite (Y-y-y-), and not about to die at any minute
I think I love her, but I'll never tell, I won't admit it
And that's my problem, I won't solve 'em, I won't go the distance
I'll just regress into a mess, and so, I hope you listen
I hope you notice I'm my lowest, hope you know the difference
I said, "Let's never speak again"- maybe I spoke too soon
'Cause now these words been feelin' broken, they got no more room
They get consumed by their own dust, and leave a hopeless tune
What do I do? Ain't got no closure for this open wound
Ain't got no closure
But the man on my shoulder, yeah
The Man on My Left Shoulder was written by Quadeca.
The Man on My Left Shoulder was produced by Wonderlust Beats & Quadeca.
Quadeca released The Man on My Left Shoulder on Fri Mar 08 2019.