Ego Death

[Part I]

[Verse 1]
I know I got a ego
Must be something in my brain
If I didn't, I'd probably go insane
I'm sorry I'm an asshole
That's just how the raps go
Sorry that I do this shit everyday

[Part II]

[Chorus]
What? Yeah, I'm on my ego death
I had to reassess, I had to resurrect, yeah
Huh, hey, huh, I just wanna be the best
But I had to reassess, is that why I'm feelin' less?

[Verse 2]
Yeah, huh, my songs are bipolar like Ye, huh (Huh)
They think they controllin' my fate, uh (Ooh, yeah)
Cut all the chatter, no, y'all are not rappers
You just some ad-libbers like, "Ayy," huh (For real)
I just pulled up, back in black
Drop a hit, they react to that (Ooh, huh)
Now they see this and they actin' mad (Yeah)
Like I'm Kanye in a MAGA hat, yeah
I'm so alone, see, I’ve always been one and only
Even back when this gold chain was made out of macaroni
Now they always askin' me, what happened to the old me?
I wish I could've told him "Goodbye", wish he had known me (Yeah)
Wish that I could tell you 'bout how everyone would know you (Uh-huh)
And tell you it's worth it, despite everything they told you
Cryin' silent in your pillow sayin', “I wish I was homeschooled” (Yeah)
Too afraid to sing your songs because you thought that they would roast you, yeah
I was nine, friends told me I would go lose (They did)
Now it's time I think I gotta show you (Think I gotta show you)
That's my mind, say I don’t care, but I so do
Having trouble walkin' up a mile in my own shoes
Never used to bet on me and now they like, “I owe you”
Lookin' back at them like, “The fuck? I do not know you”
When I make a milli', mo'fucker, I'ma show you
What I had to go through to feel like I'm supposed to
Ego, I don’t need no
Other people in my trio
Myself, I and me, though, we know
We don't need no kilos, my watch frío
Yeah

[Chorus]
I’m on my ego death
But I let it breathe again, yeah, I let it resurrect, yeah
Uh (Yeah), I just wanna be the best
But I had to reassess, is that why I’m feelin' less? Yeah (Yeah)

[Verse 3]
On the way, all okay, only a call away
Feelin' like a god on my Charlemagne (Huh?)
I really think they want my presence, like a holiday (Yeah)
But I think I need to learn when to walk away (I do)
Man, I got so many problems, but I wanna stay
Without acknowledgin' how often I have gone astray (Yeah)
First step is denial, but I'm over that
And I’ve accepted it already, but it holds me back
Yeah, back, yeah
Slurrin' my words, I been movin' too fast
Yeah, fast, yeah (Okay)
Maybe I don’t wanna share it like that
Yeah, that's facts, yeah (Uh)
I need to stop checking all of the stats
Like that, like that, yeah, ayy (Yeah, yeah)

[Chorus]
I’m on my ego death
I had to reassess, I had to resurrect, yeah
Huh, hey, huh, I just wanna be the best
But I had to reassess, is that why I’m feelin' less? Yeah

[Verse 4]
I got forty-thousand comments this week
At least five-thousand said that I should kill myself, I’m a freak
I’m too weak, I'm a leech, and all my music fuckin' sucks, I’m a geek
I’m everythin' they want me to be and that's the problem with me
So when they say you got a ego, tell 'em, "Thank the fuckin' Lord"
'Cause if you didn't, you'd be sufferin', you’d be stuck there on the floor with nothin' more
At least I'm out here smilin' in the quicksand
Take your head out of that pillow, one day, you gon' be the big man
Yeah

[Part III]

[Outro]
In the dark
I stare into mirrors for hours
Until I can’t recognize myself
A dissonant reflection
Both a sober and a sobering hallucination