The Hold

[Verse 1]
I'm twiddling my thumbs
Trying to make these words knit into the drums
While they listen to the mumbling
My pride says on every single list be #1
I pray under my breath to get a sense of what's to come
With a full understanding your favorite knows that I'm dangerous
If that was the goal, I may have missed it
That's plagiarism
I'm trying to make a shift
Change the climate
Lotta 70 degrees
Feeling heavy in the breeze
The deadliest medleys seem heavenly indeed
So my goal's to get the message & the melodies to meet
Like la da da
I'm tryna model Christ
I see em stop the light
& Define it as modernizing
They screaming stop the violence
I say we take it by force
Before they infiltrate the stained glass & take all our choices
I'm annoyed with it
No longer in love with my mistakes
I see the voids in em
Nor will my assignment be soiled with intentions, inhibitions
An extension, or mixed with what I'm incensed with
This is senseless
Let my humanity stop me from pursuing
The holiness that hopelessness would ruin
I'm through with it

[Hook]
What am I holding onto? (x3)
Is it the money, the clothes, the cars I suppose?
Yo, what am I holding onto (x2)

[2nd verse]
Bunch of Jordan 1 boxes
I love options
Raised spoiled so never needed the drug options
Wasn't a thug though I hung with em
They'd let me fight, but never slang I was loved different
I loved women & still do much to a fault
But it's stupid to think karma is what gave me a daughter
That's selfish
& The God I serve gave me Himself
So I'm king & still cool that He made me the help
I'm on the road to success, I made a couple of lefts
Was never left
Could never leverage or do this myself
I don't idolize these rappers
Nor am I impressed
You won't see me taking pictures with em talmbout I'm blessed
Why they thirsty?
Why they eager for acceptance
From ppl who want their talent but not their Headship
I get it...
Cuz for a time, that was me
Lied & told myself I was trying to give em Jesus
When really my motive was to forward my career
& The adoration of someone I adored as a kid
But that's silly
So I won't label what God enabled
More than relatable I wanna *see a change in you

[Hook]
Hold on (x4)
What am I holding onto?
Is it the money, the clothes, the cars I suppose
Yo, what am I holding onto? (x2)