The Hedonist

[Verse 1]
I’m at the mercy of the heavens
How can I decide my fate?
When the season that got within hibernates
It’s out of my hands
Dry and frostbit from the cold wind
Born with no sin and tortured and broken
Life begins when you stare in the serpent's eyes
You’re beast of burden’s right there when the curtains rise
Yours to bear through the vanity fair
The club lights and blood nights when sanity's rare
But it's all a big game to ease aches and pains
You embrace a new hell to escape the flames
And wind up deeper in the world of smiles and stares
Where everyone's quick to judge, I been on trial for years
Come on, whether you play your position or not
You got hyenas in the skies lickin' they're chops
And you got rodents runnin' lips snitchin' to cops
Who all stage props and forever thicken the plot
Some will trample over anyone to get to the top
Live foul 'til the day they die stiffen and rot
The clock's tickin' and musicians all got expiration dates
Pops wasn't there to tell me not to make the same mistakes
Favor poise and momentary fulfillment
From pussy to pills to grams of the white
Through it all it's a wonder that I manage to write
And everything I hold sacred didn't vanish from sight

[Pre-Chorus]
It's too real
We tend to forget we're not bulletproof
And anger the heavens by shootin' holes through the roof
I told 'em the truth
And while no lies leave your lips
Feel the world through the cold eyes of the hedonist

[Chorus]
I been addicted to a life of sin for too long
Tryin’ to live right but give in and do wrong
My man said the beast put his tools in my palm
The means of escape I abuse and drive off
So what’s it gonna take to diffuse and [?]
There’s too much at stake and I’m losin’ my calm
Dreamin’ I’m awake and refuse to die young
Dreamin’ I’m awake and refuse to die young
All set to pack my bags and move on
Tryin’ to live right but give in and do wrong
There’s too much at stake and I’m losin’ my calm
Dreamin’ I’m awake and refuse to die young

[Verse 2]
Ear to the street, nose to the grindstone
Eyes on the prize, head to the sky, now I'm grown
And gotta make mine by any means
See the underground economy supplyin' the green
It's like the only way to get ahead's to move product
Knowin' that lifestyle will get you caught up
But I made somethin' out of nothin' to lose
Nothin' to hide but somethin' to prove
The dream catcher
Extreme pressure bearin' down on my shoulder blades
Weight of the world, we all got a roll to play
Atlas Shrugged just a light in this road
While we syphon life from the globe, a sight to behold
I took a tainted doctrine and live by it
The hedonist put myself on a strict diet
Coffee, opiates, cigarettes and swine
Immune to poison I'm death defyin'
I'm the voice of one collective mind
A rare breed of dreamers at least what's left of mine
Try to make up for lost time spent in your bed
From the summer of Oh Five to the winter of my discontent

[Pre-Chorus]
It's too real
We tend to forget we're not bulletproof
And anger the heavens by shootin' holes through the roof
I told 'em the truth
And while no lies leave your lips
Feel the world through the cold eyes of the hedonist

[Chorus]
I been addicted to a life of sin for too long
Tryin’ to live right but give in and do wrong
My man said the beast put his tools in my palm
The means of escape I abuse and drive off
So what’s it gonna take to diffuse and [?]
There’s too much at stake and I’m losin’ my calm
Dreamin’ I’m awake and refuse to die young
Dreamin’ I’m awake and refuse to die young
All set to pack my bags and move on
Tryin’ to live right but give in and do wrong
There’s too much at stake and I’m losin’ my calm
Dreamin’ I’m awake and refuse to die young
(Young, young, young, young, young, young...)