China White

[Verse 1]
It's been a long time coming, still hasn't arrived
Lost love, sacrificed over madness and pride
And it's hard to let go, we keep the magic alive
'Til you outgrow your old self, and cast it aside
Don't remorse over the past, I'm (happy in thought?)
Though my time for atonement kept passing me by
Try to explain my actions and rationalize
But never had an answer when my love was asking me why
It's the same now, from an ever-present rain cloud
To the way I earn a living and neglect my brain-child
But I made it out by some strangе luck
Used to blow lines and fuck 'til the sun camе up
Between thoughts that were foreign to me, twisting and turning
Broke promises, and had to live with the burden
In the, grips of the serpent, trying to breathe
Felt my only way out was to lie and deceive

[Hook 1]
She keeps asking me...
Why?
If you knew my past, you'd know the rest, and that's my only reply
Still tripping over someone that I let slip by
And I've grown too detached to try
She keeps asking me...
Why the long face? Every day you grow colder
Every question is answered with a cold shoulder
It's like I can't help but to give in to needs
Then I slowly lose interest and leave
She keeps asking me...

[Verse 2]
Yeah, I've asked the same question to God
Left a part of life's lessons like the rest of the mob
Soul seven, some prophesied the end soon come
With the onslaught of violence, many men grew numb
I lost
One of my people to the edge of a knife
A blade cut his throat and prematurely ended his life
But he proved himself to be a loyal friend in the end
And got taken from this world for defending his kin
These are strange times indeed
I self-medicate in an attempt to try and put my mind at ease
We gave no thought to the repercussions at first
Now we're witnessing the whole-scale destruction of Earth
Tax dollars form blood-stained army fatigues
And our politicians feed off of carnage and greed
The serpent tightens its grip, it's getting harder to breathe
I look to the heavens for answers and wanna believe

[Hook 2]
I keep asking him...
Why?
What's the purpose behind this? But never seem to get a reply
Still, you can't lose faith when you look to the sky
Haven't grown too bitter to try
I keep asking him...
Why the homie have to lose his life?
Why do so many suffer trying to do what's right?
Hell, asperous fate, it's tragic how it often ends
We've lost touch with the God within
I keep asking him...

[Verse 3]
This inner conflict has helped me perfect my artistry
The God in me's fatherly, it's hard to neglect that part of me
Started to see the stars and galaxies run through my arteries
And understand that the state of the world ain't how it ought to be
Ten devotion and party prone to debauchery
The only thing stopping me from profiting off it's probably
Paranoia's got me feeling like someone's always watching me
Don't want to be property of the state and have to cop a plea
Every month or so, I see the P-O
For getting caught up with liquid O-C and C-O
Little does he know I still read up on the low
But give him the impression that everything is under control
Can't shake the illusion that I'm living it up
Despite everybody saying I should give the shit up
In the belly of the beast, in the pit of his gut
Swallowed whole by the serpent, not giving a fuck

[Hook 3]
They keep asking me...
Why?
Man, I'm in too deep, I gotta find another way to get by
From the beginning I already knew the stakes were high
Now I know I gotta break my ties
They keep asking me...
Why the long face? Every day you grow colder
Every question is answered with a cold shoulder
Every attempt to quit the life is in vain
And everybody says Deca you've changed
They keep telling me...