Suicidal Revenge

[Intro]
Suicide's a major public health problem in this country
And like other external causes of death—accidents, homicides
Suicides are also considered an external cause of death
It might be that we don't know for sure if somebody really intends to or not
And the individual might not be certain either
But we certainly want to give them some help

[Verse 1]
The more that I try, the more that I want
More that I grind, the more that I shine
The more that I stride, the more that I stunt
The more that I preach, the more that they leave
The more that I cry, the harder to trust
The harder to love, the harder, the harder
The more I lie, the harder to die
The more I leave, I'm harder to love
I'm harder to teach
My heart is a beat and I am the drum
I'm harder to keep, but harder to sleep
I’m scared of the dark, I'm not gonna run
I'm harder to break, but harder to make
You get in my way, I'm drawing my blade
I'm not gonna play, I'm not for the games
I'm not gonna change, put that on my fam
Put that on my mum, put that on my sis
Put that on my niggas and all of my friends
Put that on my team, put that on my G's
I say what I mean, you already know
I'm harder to love but I’m harder to break
I'm the real, I’m not the fake
You should accept it, we make mistakes
But I know I sound insane
And to the fake
Don't call me your bro, don't call me no more, I call you a trick
I’m tired of the hate, I'm tired of the snakes
I'm tired of your face, you're all on my dick
You wanted me to fall, you wanted me to crawl
You wanted me to stall, you want me on drugs
You want me to fail, you want me in jail
They wantin' my soul, they wantin' my blood
I'm out for revenge, I'm out for the ends
I'm out for respect, I'm out for the crown
I'm out for the reign, they startin' to aim
I'm going insane, whats with my brain
I’m getting migraine I wanted to be safe
But I’m not saved, I don’t wanna live, I don’t wanna be alive
I wanted to die, whoo

[Chorus]
I’m out for revenge that I cut them in my sleep (Whoo, yeah)
I kill them then I kill myself then wake up and repeat (Blaow, blaow)
You say you were there for me so explain the then and now (Yeah)
'Cause it seems I’ve been rolling on my own by myself
I’m out for revenge that I cut them in my sleep (Uh, whoo)
I kill them then I kill myself then wake up and repeat
You say you were there for me so explain the then and now (Nah, yeah)
'Cause it seems I’ve been rolling on my own by myself (Yeah)

[Verse 3]
So tell me how am I the only one that’s been turned away?
When I’ve given you my friendship, time, and money to donate
You’d rather you’re yes men then me anyways
You don’t care how I’ve been so cut out
I’ve been let down, I’ve been pulled down
I’ve been though every betrayal that you can think off right now
All you fake pussies friends took my money and laugh it out
You say I’m asshole but actually I help people out
You never had the balls to tell me the truth of the cause
But you used me that’s all
I’ve done with 2019, I'm done with anyone else
I’m done with the fact I’ve been loyal and that doesn't mean shit now
'Cause now
I had to go find myself, I killed and buried my friends
'Cause I’m better off without
They left me drown and no one's reaching out
They see nothing but evil inside of me now

[Chorus]
I’m out for revenge that I cut them in my sleep (Yeah)
I kill them then I kill myself then wake up and repeat (Now)
You say you were there for me so explain the then and now (Now)
'Cause it seems I’ve been rolling on my own by myself
I’m out for revenge that I cut them in my sleep (Whoo, in my sleep)
I kill them then I kill myself then wake up and repeat (Whoo)
You say you were there for me so explain the then and now (Nah, now)
'Cause it seems I’ve been rolling on my own by myself (Now)

[Verse 4]
I remember the birthdays, I remember the time I was there in hospital with you
And don’t lie, come on, just tell the truth
I’m done with this denial shit, I’m done with your shit
Don’t be a bitch, there’s no civil ship
There’s no loyalty in your heart, why disrespect it?
You twisting my words, no comprehendin' it
If my pen was a gun you all would be shot in under minute
People sayin' I’m a villain but there’s no Harley quittin'
One day, I get the cash comin' in
Only my family will be the ones that’ll be eating
No more, "I'll pay you back when I get some money in"
While I mix my vodka with some Monster Energy
I stay awake but feeling wavy, yeah
I’ve done some bad shit, I’ll admit
I'll take responsibility then be a selfish prick
You should accept that we make mistakes
And I know I sound insane
To the fake, don't call me your bro, don't call me no more, yeah

[Chorus]
I’m out for revenge that I cut them in my sleep
I kill them then I kill myself then wake up and repeat
You say you were there for me, so explain the then and now (Then and now)
'Cause it seems I’ve been rolling on my own by myself (By myself now)
I’m out for revenge, then I cut them in my sleep (In my sleep)
I kill them then I kill myself then wake up and repeat
You say you were there for me, so explain the then and now (Then and now)
'Cause it seems I’ve been rolling on my own by myself (Man)

[Outro]
The more that I try, the more that I want
More that I grind, the more that I shine
The more that I stride, the more that I stunt
The more that I preach, the more that they leave
The more that I cry, the harder to trust
The harder to love
The harder to lie, the harder to die
The more I leave, I'm harder to love, uh