Stuck in a Pattern

Screaming in silence, dying all alone
How could you give me a broken heart?
Everything was just fine from the start
But now I know you, I know your game
How do you walk with the burden of shame?
Running far away, leaving this mess
No place called home
My mind is in turmoil, that's driving me insane
It's never at ease
I fall way behind, there's nothing to grasp
Always trying to please
I love you and I hate you, I decided we are through
You destroyed my heart
Ripped it and than tossed it
You broke my heart
Suffering on the inside, letting go of lies

I'm stuck in a pattern that I can't shake
You sit by and watch it break

The dark thoughts they take over
The truth no one will know
I stumble through each day, barely scraping by
I travel in circles and fall far behind
Losing my sanity, losing my mind
Bitch, I really hate you I wish for you to die
That's all I think about every time I close my eyes

You're so oblivious
You don't see what you do, you always hurt me
And you don't have a clue
I can't take it anymore! I want to give in!
I've told you once and now I'm telling you twice
This is the last time I'm gonna say it. Stay the fuck out of my life!

You're always right and I'm always wrong
You think you're perfect and I just don't belong
It isn't worth it, this is too much pain
I want to watch you burn in hell and hear your screams of agony
I want to see you torn apart by the demons in your soul

No one can fix what you have done
The anger inside me, I can't repress
I want your life to be ruined!