Stubborn Hero

I drove those roads we used to know
They're all the same, even as the world has changed
The lights that glimmer and dance through the trees
Is such a bittersweet thing to see

Without my father beside me

I guess on this side of Heaven
We only get to question why
Are you okay? Are you alright
In your bed amongst the sky?

So I'm writing just to say
I really don't know how to cope
But while I'm losing my grip, I just need you to know
That your son and your daughter are so much like their father
And if you could see them now, I think that you would be proud
We don't know how to carry on, we just know that we have to
We never wanted you to go, but we know that you had to

But you left without a word, and I'd just like to know
Why, why, why, why
I lost you when I shut the door

I guess on this side of Heaven
We only get to question why
Are you okay? Are you alright?
Are you better on the other side?

I drove the roads we used to know
They're all the same, still the goddamn same
It's in these moments I wish I had noticed
How much it would mean to me

How much you would mean to me

I'm so sorry I wasn't a better son to you
I'm so sorry for everything I put you through
No, it wasn't your fault, but I know you felt that it was
When my self-destructive tendencies were killing us
If I wasn't a coward, I would have been there
If I wasn't so selfish, you'd know that I cared
It's hard to know I didn't say "I love you" enough
And now your vices came and stole you from us

The darkest day of my life

Was the day I learned that I would never see you again
Through nights spent dreaming
I remember the way you were
And I could never forget, I never will regret any time we shared
Sleep well forever, father